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The Faith of a Tonsil 

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I had just sent out the invitations for my Remission party – to celebrate that after two years, I had finally achieved remission from leukemia, when I got the call. They noticed a small area of concern in my tonsil on a recent scan. “It is probably nothing,” but I should get another scan. A day later, my doctor called me and said they found a tumor in my tonsil. My surgery was in 13 days.  

Things happened quickly. Mostly, I was grateful. Let’s get this tumor out. Yet I also had to plan for an unexpected two weeks off from work and more. For two years I had gone through multiple treatments and chemo. It had been long and tiring. I was ready to return to my old self. If the tumor was malignant, this would be the first of two surgeries, plus possible radiation. My head was swirling.  

I moved toward the surgery, checking things off my lists, preparing for recovery, and praying. Praying that this would be benign. I was surrounded by an army of prayer warriors too. Yet, I still found myself struggling to sleep at night. I googled “tonsil cancer.” I worried. I was scared and depressed, no matter how much I prayed or others prayed for me.  

One morning I awoke, feeling like I had received a message from God: “All will be well.” The assurance I felt did not ensure a benign biopsy or an easy road ahead, but that “all will be well,” regardless. This reminder of God’s presence carried me for the next few days. 

My surgery went well. Now to wait for the biopsy results, which would take about a week. Recovery from such surgery is awful. I was barely able to swallow, even my own saliva, and I lost ten pounds in the first week. The silver lining about having such intense pain is that it kept my mind off the biopsy results. A week passed and no results. My pain was still bad, but slightly improving, so I found myself thinking more about the biopsy. The hypothetical scenarios would play out, often in the middle of the night, as I waited. God’s assurance a week before seemed distant. 

In the hospital, just a few minutes before surgery, Sue is ready for her tonsil and tumor to be removed.

Photo by: Michael Howes

Last week, I met with my doctor. He told me that the primary biopsy results were in, but that it would be another two weeks until I received the final, full report. The initial biopsy report showed no signs of malignancy. Benign. He was quite confident that the final report would be the same.  

I felt lighter, relieved, renewed.   

I’m still waiting for those final biopsy results … probably for another week. But now the waiting doesn’t seem so difficult. I have trust in the doctor and his belief, for which I am grateful.  

However, it makes me pause. I still don’t know what the final biopsy result will be. Yet, the doctor’s confidence has allowed me to release my fear of the unknown. Why was I not able to release that fear to God as I prayed? Shouldn’t I be able to release it, trusting God that all will be well, regardless of the final biopsy? I confess I wasn’t. But with the doctor I was.  

I don’t want to beat myself up for my lack of faith. It’s common. But it has made me think about prayer and faith, especially during medical challenges. What are we praying for? If we pray in faith, why do we still worry? Why can’t I trust God’s word in the same way that I trust the doctor’s word? 

Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief.  

It’s Your Turn: Pray & Engage the Pathway Forward  

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The Pathways Steering Team has diligently listened, prayed, and discerned over the last year. Together with Grovider, our consultants, we have sought to collect and organize thoughts, feelings, and opinions from the variety of voices represented in our Conference community, under the direction of the Holy Spirit. 

The first outlined point of the Pathways Document approved by delegates in 2022, reads, “To share in the practice of continued prayer and fasting so that we may discern, yield, and listen to the Spirit among us.”  In preparation for our Assembly on November 4, the Pathways Steering Team and the Mosaic Board invite everyone to fast and pray each Wednesday between now and November 4. There are weekly guiding scriptures to focus your prayer and fasting time. An online, Mosaic prayer group meets each Wednesday at 12 pm ET/9 am PT. To join the group, click here at that time for the Zoom connection.  You may also host a time of prayer in your congregation. Regardless of when it is done, fasting and praying together to surrender to God is important.

During the spring and summer months, The Pathway Steering Team met with various focus groups throughout the Conference. We now offer you this working document and summary of what we heard from the focus groups and interviews and say, “It is your turn.” Please prayerfully read the document and share it with anyone who would be interested. Have conversations with other leaders in your congregations, Conference Related Ministries (CRMs), and around the Conference. Ask the questions: What are the various pieces of our mosaic? What can we affirm? What is missing?

At our Delegate Preparation Meetings from September 23-28 (click here for registration to these meetings), we plan to process the report with delegates further.  We hope delegates will read and process the report with others in their congregation prior to the Delegate Preparation Meetings and come prepared to discuss the findings.  The input we gather at these Delegate Preparation Meetings will inform our agenda and discernment at our Assembly gathering on November 4 (register here for Assembly, as a delegate or a guest). It will also help us develop proposed priorities for the Strategic Plan. In order for the official strategic planning to begin in January 2024, as outlined in the original Pathways Forward proposal, the identified priorities will need to be approved by the Conference Board and Mosaic staff by the end of 2023. 

Prior to Assembly, the Mosaic Board asks you to also review the guiding documents of our Conference. We will be using these as we navigate through the tensions and areas of dissent in the Conference.  These documents were adopted by Franconia Conference in 2015 and folded into Mosaic’s framework in 2020. Please familiarize yourself with these important, foundational documents.  

In the coming year, with the guidance of the Holy Spirit, the Board and Conference Committees will lead discussion and discernment in areas of current tensions within our Conference. Such topics include nationalism, immigration policies, patriarchy, poverty, economic inequality, human sexuality, white supremacy, racism, and oppression. The purpose of these discussions is to hear different perspectives and be mutually transformed.  

As we think about the potentially challenging work we have ahead of us, we desire to bear witness to God’s church together. How do we find clarity in our differences and work at loving one another and being people of God’s peace? How can we be the church and be a counter-cultural alternative to the world around us?   

God is creating our mosaic:  together, the broken and beautiful pieces form a representation of Christ for each other and the world. 

Photo by: Marta Castillo

God’s various gifts are handed out everywhere; but they all originate in God’s Spirit. God’s various ministries are carried out everywhere; but they all originate in God’s Spirit. God’s various expressions of power are in action everywhere; but God himself is behind it all. Each person is given something to do that shows who God is: Everyone gets in on it, everyone benefits. All kinds of things are handed out by the Spirit, and to all kinds of people! The variety is wonderful: wise counsel, clear understanding, simple trust, healing the sick, miraculous acts Proclamation, distinguishing between spirits, tongues, interpretation of tongues. All these gifts have a common origin but are handed out one by one by the one Spirit of God. He decides who gets what, and when. (1 Corinthians 12: 4-11, MSG) 

300 Patients Who Reminded Me What It Means to Be Mosaic 

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Photo by Mark Neal

As part of my summer sabbatical, I joined the St. Mary’s Hospital Clinical Pastoral Education (CPE) program and was placed at Nazareth Hospital in northeast Philadelphia. It’s a Catholic hospital in a diverse part of the city. Each week, for 11 weeks, I spent 14 hours in classroom education and 24 hours walking the floors of the hospital, discerning whom to visit on my shift. Over the summer, I visited approximately 300 patients.  

I worked in the Emergency Room, Intensive Care, and General Surgery floors regularly. About 25% of the patients were Spanish-speaking, 10% Jewish, and 10% Muslim. Staff and patients were from around the world, each with their unique stories.

Every day was full of complicated stories. I saw people struggling with addictions, strokes, end-of-life issues, suicide attempts, and behavioral health concerns. It was invigorating and exhausting to attempt to provide spiritual care to this wide variety of people.

I re-learned some basic things about ministry and my own sense of call to service and leadership. I was reminded that the love of people is essential to our work. I encountered the mystery of God’s power in words, touch, and silence. I saw again the importance of understanding and being understood when working with a limited knowledge of languages — the frustration of Babel and the power of Pentecost.  

I was reminded of the generosity of people who serve in healthcare, human services, and education. I was often frustrated with the inadequacies of our systems to respond to patient needs. I saw the challenge to maintain meaningful wages for staff. I felt the struggle to communicate compassion and care behind a surgical mask. 

I was reminded that I often could not have meaningful conversations with patients if basic needs like food, water, temperature, and pain were not addressed. I was surprised how intimate conversations could emerge if I helped people feel safe and valued, even for a few minutes. I learned the power of paying attention, of stumbling to speak another person’s language, of trying to understand other religious perspectives. 

I learned the importance of just showing up, making cold calls, admitting when I made mistakes, and of taking breaks. I appreciated the care of staff in the cafeteria, staff who cleaned the rooms, nurses who felt their work was a calling, and doctors who went above and beyond to try to provide adaptive care for patients with complex situations.

I return from sabbatical grateful for this break, for the opportunity to peer into another kind of ministry space, for the 300 people I visited, and for the staff who welcomed a Spanish-speaking, Slavic-background, Mennonite minister into their midst.

Photo by Kampus Production

I’m grateful to our Mosaic board and my Mosaic colleagues for making this sabbatical possible. I was able to be away with full confidence, particularly with Marta Castillo’s willingness to serve as Acting Executive Minister. It’s my first sabbatical in over 25 years of ministry. These three months allowed me to be reminded of my basic love of God and people that rooted my willingness to begin pastoral work back in 1996. 

Coming back, I am reminded that we as Mosaic felt our own sense of call to be a diverse community, where uniqueness is welcomed and the broken and beautiful are acknowledged. I return, committed to my own sense of call to be kind, open, and centered. I come back to my Executive Minister work, knowing there is tough, hard, and holy work ahead. This work requires all our skills and gifts, and our mutual trust, to bring healing and hope to ourselves, our neighborhoods, and the world. 

Register Now for Assembly and Delegate Preparation Meetings 

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Mosaic Mennonite Conference Assembly

Saturday, November 4, 2023

(Registration and Exhibits Open 9:00-9:30 AM)
9:30 AM – 4 PM ET
Souderton Mennonite Church (map)
(in person – there is no virtual option this year)

Register your attendance!

Why should I register?  Your church or CRM may have reported to Mosaic that you are a delegate, but now we need you to REGISTER your attendance.  All attendees – delegates and guests – should register their attendance, to help us plan and prepare.

What are Assembly Delegate Preparation Meetings?
Mosaic Conference holds a series of delegate preparation meetings in the weeks leading up to our gathered Assembly. The purpose of these meetings is to help delegates understand the important commitment and specific duties they are responsible for, to prepare them with the latest information on the issues that will be discussed, and to give an opportunity to give feedback and ask questions.

Delegates are asked to please register and attend at least one meeting on a date & location that best suits them. 

Register for a delegate preparation meeting

* Find important Mosaic Conference documents HERE
* Delegate Assembly Policy & Delegate Ministry Description: pages 8-10 HERE
* Mosaic News – our weekly e-newsletter: see past issues HERE
(new delegates will begin to receive Mosaic News next week!)

The 2023 Docket will be released in a few weeks … watch your email!

(5/11) Powerful Kindness, Faithful Truth – Conference Assembly Theme

Visit MosaicMennonites.org/assembly 
or check your email for important information, documents
& details as they become available! 

register now!

Living in the Why

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Photo by Ann H from Pexels

I am often asked, “What does a pastor do?” The question is meant to probe into what my job entails outside of the three hours I am on duty Sunday mornings. I don’t begrudge the person for asking the question; in today’s world, employees need to justify their time at work, and pastors are often seen as employees of the church.

So, when answering the “what” question, I am often tempted to prove my worth and tell them every detail of my weekly schedule. My duties range from visiting the sick or homebound members, counseling folks, and planning worship and sermons, to setting up tables and chairs and other janitorial duties.

But instead, my answer is usually a snarky, “Not a whole lot. It is a great job that only requires me to work one day a week!” That comment usually ends with an awkward silence followed by some laughter.

Last month, I was in line at a grocery store, talking with the person in front of me. When the person asked the “what” question of me after I said I was a pastor, another person behind me in line, who was listening in, followed up by asking simply, “Why?”

Somewhat startled, I asked, “Why what?” The person said that she wanted to know why anyone would want to be a pastor. Then she shared that her spouse was a former pastor who had been deeply hurt by people’s mistrust, harsh words, unmet expectations, and insinuations. Not only had this pastor left the ministry, but he also left his faith behind in the wake of all his pain and hurt. After I heard about this couple’s experience, the “why” question to me was completely appropriate.

In that moment, I wondered how or even if I should respond to the “why” question. I have gone through times of disappointment and discouragement in ministry. I have experienced failures, challenges, and made many mistakes. An honest answer may have been to tell the woman that I often wonder “why” I am doing this as well.

Yet, my response to the “why” question was simply that I felt called by God to the pastoral office. And that feeling of call makes all the difference as other pastors and l live into our ministry communities and react to the struggles and pressures that our churches are experiencing today.

I cannot help but recall the years that I spent on the Credential Committee of Mosaic Conference. Whenever we interviewed new pastoral candidates, the first question we asked them was about their call to ministry. The candidates answered the “why” question with a passionate sense of God’s call on their lives to serve the church.

Photo by Timon Studler

Perhaps we have simply forgotten that God has called our pastors. God has given them a purpose and passion for ministry. Pastors are not perfect. Pastors have families, personal struggles, and emotional issues that affect their lives and their ministries. And pastors certainly do not have all the gifts necessary to lead and guide their churches by themselves.

But that is why we are called to serve in the church with many other members and gifts. If we allow our pastors to focus on their call to serve rather than on all the tasks and expectations that many put on them, their ministry will be fulfilling, inspiring, and life-changing to everyone. Let’s pray that our pastors will experience a renewed sense of God’s call on their lives and that the congregations will allow them to minister and live in the “why” with passion, love, and humility.

Get Ready for Assembly

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Mosaic’s Annual Assembly is just a little over 2 months away!  While many of us still feel like summer isn’t over, now is the time to start planning for Assembly.  Here are a few things to know: 

When? Saturday, November 4, 2023; 9:30 AM-4:00 PM (Registration is from 9-9:30 AM) 

Where? Souderton Mennonite Church, 105 W Chestnut St., Souderton, PA 18964 (Everything is in-person this year) 

What is the theme? “Emet”, the Hebrew word meaning powerful kindness, faithful truth, based on Psalms 116 & 117 

What should I do now to prepare for Assembly? 

  1. If your church or Conference Related Ministry (CRM) has not yet submitted your delegates’ names for the Assembly, please contact your Leadership Minister as soon as possible. CRMs should contact Margaret Zook as soon as possible.
  2. Watch your email and Mosaic’s weekly Newsletter, Mosaic News, for important updates and information about Assembly in the coming weeks. 
  3. Plan now to attend an Assembly Delegate Preparation Meeting.  All delegates are strongly encouraged to attend one.  Registration will open on September 5 for these meetings, but mark your calendar now.  
  4. Registration for Assembly will open on September 5. Everyone (delegates and guests) who is planning to attend Assembly must register, even if your church has already named you as a delegate. We need to hear from you to complete your registration. (All named delegates will receive an email with registration details on September 5.)  
  5. If you are attending Assembly as a guest (not as a delegate), you are most welcome. We just need to know you are coming, so please register when registration opens on September 5.  
  6. If you are coming from a distance, plan your travel and arrange for your lodging.  If you need assistance with lodging, please click here for information. 
  7. Pray for the Assembly, Mosaic’s Board, the Pathways Steering Committee, delegates, Mosaic staff planning it, those attending, and God’s leading in the process.

The Not-So-Easy Leadership Adjustment

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“If you follow this advice, and if God commands you to do so, then you will be able to endure the pressures, and all these people will go home in peace” (Exodus 18:23, NLT).

We find this text situated in the story of Jethro’s visit with Moses after the liberation of the people of Israel from Egypt. Hearing all that God had done for the people of Israel in rescuing them from the Egyptians, Jethro proclaims, “I know now that the Lord is greater than all other gods” (Exod. 18:11) and offers a sacrifice to the God of Israel. 

After celebrating the mighty works of God the day before, Jethro goes out the next day to see what Moses is doing and discovers that Moses is doing everything as the leader of the Israelites: serving as an arbitrator, coordinating decisions, communicating God’s instructions to the people.  Jethro tells Moses, “You’re going to wear yourself out – and the people, too. This job is too heavy a burden for you to handle all by yourself” (Exod. 18:18, NLT). Jethro continues, giving Moses some advice on how to delegate the work by finding reliable colleagues and empowering others, emphasizing, “If you follow this advice, and if God commands you to do so, then you will be able to endure the pressures, and all these people will go home in peace” (Exod. 18:23).  

While the people of Israel were still in Egypt, Moses was used to doing everything under the direction of God. However, the context has now changed. They are no longer in Egypt, yet Moses’ leadership style remains the same. Jethro’s wise counsel identifies the reality of the context change and the leadership style required for this new reality. 

Today, we are undergoing significant context changes as well. What are the leadership adjustments required for the context we find ourselves in? What conversations are needed? What questions need to be asked and wrestled with? Whom do we need to empower to help us lead? 

The text notes that Moses listened to Jethro’s counsel and did what he advised. He made leadership adjustments that empowered others to help carry the load. This is not always an easy thing for leaders to do, especially if we want things done a certain way.  

What allowed Moses to make the adjustment? Numbers 12:3 gives us a clue: “Now Moses was very humble—more humble than any other person on earth.” It would seem that leadership adjustments require humility.  

How might we cultivate humility in times of change? Who needs to be empowered to help carry the load? How might we extend grace and truth in love as we struggle to lead in a context that has changed and will continue to change for the foreseeable future? What leadership adjustments might you need to make? 

When No One is Pleased

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Editor’s Note: Associate Executive Minister, Marta Castillo, wrote the following article, reflecting on the work of Mosaic Conference over the past 17 months in response to the March 2022 allegations of misconduct at Dock Mennonite Academy, a Conference Related Ministry. 

What happens when we go through a misconduct investigation process, and no one is pleased?  What happens when a decision is reached, and everyone loses in one way or another?   

  • Victims are hurt, traumatized, and not satisfied. 
  • Prophets are disgusted and disappointed.
  • Defendants are bruised and angry. 
  • Participants, processors, and decision-makers are weary and disillusioned.  
  • Cracks in our system have been exposed.  
  • Transparency and communication have been compromised.  
  • Relationships need healing because we are broken and uncomfortable on all sides. 

Where do we go from here?    
What do we hold on to and what do we let go?    
What do we lament?  What are we thankful to God for?  
How do we move forward in God’s grace and righteousness? 

I wrote the above reflection over a year ago.  When, after hours of prayer, conversation, and discernment, the best intentions of those involved “seemed” to come up empty for a peaceful and satisfactory outcome.  No one was pleased.   

Since then, we at Mosaic Conference have continued to invest hours of discernment and conversation with the Ministerial Committee, Conference Board and staff, Conference Related Ministries (CRMs), invested persons from our conference, and professionals around the above questions.  

The following is an incomplete yet important list of what we have learned about ourselves as Mosaic Conference, what we lament, what we are thankful for, and what steps we might take to move forward in God’s grace and righteousness:   

We learned that our Lead Minister system has weaknesses, especially in churches with multiple credentialed leaders, as we focus on lead pastors.  We learned the Lead Ministers are unequipped for following up in these situations.   

We commit to training Lead Ministers on how to communicate with credentialed leaders and the community in situations where abuse allegations have been made and how to accompany a leader who has been accused.   

We learned that the Conference process was riddled with overlapping relationships and roles which resulted in conflict of interest.   

We commit to identifying and acknowledging conflicts of interest within our system and to limit the influence of conflicting loyalties on our board, committee, and staff decisions. 

We learned that silence in communication creates anxiety for the community (especially persons who have already been traumatized by abuse).  

We commit to the best practices of keeping communication open by: 

  • Sharing resources and articles on abuse prevention and healing when there is alleged abuse. 
  • Sharing frequent updates, even simply saying there is no update, if that is the case.
  • Being transparent in sharing facts: Why don’t we have the information, why we aren’t charging, etc.
  • Creating space for survivors to provide feedback and give input into what our best practices can be moving forward. 

We learned that the process of investigating credentialed leaders who are licensed by the Conference and work for another institution or Conference Related Ministry is complex. This is because our commitment to a Conference Related Ministry is a looser organizational connection and our relationship with credentialed leaders is one of accountability and authority.   

We commit to a new level of accountability and cooperation with Mosaic credentialed leaders who are employed by an organization or Conference Related Ministry by signing a memo of understanding.  We seek an agreement to keep communication open and commit to an integrated process that acknowledges Mosaic’s role as licensing entity.  This policy has been created and is waiting for board approval once logistics are clarified with the denomination. 

We commit to strengthening the already functioning Addressing Abuse Committee (a sub-committee of the Ministerial Committee) by adding new members and meeting twice a year to review and revise our existing policies and practices. 

We are thankful to everyone who has questioned us and challenged us, so that we can better support the people among us who have experienced abuse.  We are thankful to everyone who has supported us and walked with us even if you were not pleased.   

To the God who cares for the brokenhearted, to the God of justice, to the God who can bring healing and wholeness, we pray.  Lord, forgive us.  Transform us.  Lead us on.  Amen.